An Actor’s Diary
My
life as an actor started on a Friday and I know that it will end on a Friday. I
am aware of the reality that all I can do is to push my last Friday as further as
I can.
I vividly remember my first release
day. I have always heard of people talking about being happy, worried and
scared all at the same time. That day, I learned what exactly it felt like. It
was strange. I wasn’t sure if people would like me. The first time I saw myself
on the silver screen, I cringed. All I could see were the flaws in my
appearance and acting. My first film evoked mixed responses. Some people liked
me but I knew most were being polite when they said I did well for a debutant.
By the time my second film released,
I had a faint idea about the craft of acting and how things worked in the
industry and among the audience. That film was a success or in industry terms,
a super hit! More people appreciated my work. I started showing up on Google
much to my surprise and my social media presence increased considerably.
I remember feeling awkward while
giving the very first interview. I kept on thinking why would people want to
know about my personal life! What interest it is for to them? More strange was
the first photo-shoot. Having never been an obviously good looking person ever
in my life, I had to tell myself repeatedly that I am in a photo shoot and my
face would grace a magazine’s cover which I grew up reading.
I also remember walking on to a
stage once and people screaming my name. All I did was smile in wonder. A
senior actor standing next to me was kind enough to tell me that I should
acknowledge their love. He asked me to wave at them. I did it reluctantly and
saw how much people enjoyed the reciprocation! The brand manager of the product
that I endorsed was “Your face sells. You need to understand that and start leveraging
it”. My manager, a veteran in the field nudged me and told me later. “This is a
make believe industry. An actor needs to believe in oneself first. Only then
will you be able to make others believe the parts you play.”
Although I knew I was becoming
popular, the realization of it never sunk in fully. Strangely enough, it was
the first minor controversy that hit me made me understand the scale of my popularity
and the responsibility that it brought along.
Now I know why people never want to
quit acting. There are very few professions which are as gratifying as this.
Even fewer where one gets appreciated for one’s work on such a large platform.
Yes, the failures are public but then everything in Life comes with a price. The
greatest thing about being an actor is that everyday, one gets to laugh, cry,
be angry, be lonely, be hated, be loved; all for reasons of not one’s own. Every
day, one gets to be a new person. Every day, one gets to live a new life.
See
you at the movies!
Arun Babu
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